It’s Okay

“Hi, um…” Allen felt his face flush with heat, the young woman in the doorway to the apartment was not who he was expecting. “Are you Lara?”

The girl smiled at him and brushed a lock of straight brown hair out of her face, “No, I’m Claudia. Lara and I thought it would be better if I showed you the place and interviewed you, since you’ll be living with me.”

She had soft brown eyes and even though she wasn’t that much taller than him it felt like she was looking down on him ever so slightly… physically looking down on him, and her voice was warm and welcoming, and a little excited.

Allen tried to hide the excitement of maybe living with her show too much on his face. He didn’t know anything about her, but just looking at her was enough to fill his head with fantasies. She was slim, trim really, like she took really good care of herself, and even though she was wearing a very conservative top, there wasn’t a top conservative to hide her breasts.

It might be too weird living with her…

“It’s okay,” she said the words softly, but with the same excitement, “I told Lara I was fine living with men or women, so if it’s too weird for you…”

The implication that he could turn around and walk away hung there, challenging him to step inside, and he took it.

“No, I uh, she… well, we didn’t really talk about you, just that… it’s cool, I’m cool.” As she smiled at him and her dark eyes met his, he felt anything but cool.

“Good, let me show you around.”

 He followed her into the apartment and instantly liked the vibe. The living room was clean and spacious without a lot of clutter, and he could see the kitchen was also spacious enough, not really big enough for two people to be in it comfortably at the same time, but there was a lot of counter space which was nice.

She talked to him a little bit about the total cost of rent and utilities, and he couldn’t believe how affordable it was, and how close to work it was, and he tried not to stare at her butt as she walked down the hall in front of him, which was hard because she had a nice butt.

“This is my bedroom, sorry, it’s the bigger of the two but I use it as a work space…” half of her room looked like a bedroom, bed, dresser, closet, the other half looked like a miniature office, a very small desk, a small shelf of books that looked professionally oriented even though he didn’t see any of the titles, a few framed certificates on the walls…

“I can change the lighting too, look, bedroom…” she adjusted the dimmer switch on the wall and the lighting went from low, warm lighting to a brighter smoother white light, “office. Bedroom…” as she said bedroom her voice softened and the lights dimmed, then her voice pepped up as she said “office” and turned the light back up.

She smiled at him, “It’s super fun, I’m just really excited about it. I see clients remotely a lot, it’s…” she lowered the lights as she kept eye contact with him and he kind of felt himself relax a little as the lights went down, “it’s one of the reasons your rent’s going to be so cheap. I mean, if you work out. There’s some other conditions that Lara’s not really allowed to talk about, but I am cause I’m not the landlord.”

“I’m uh…” Allen felt kind of paralyzed standing in her bedroom as she looked deep into his eyes. Her soft, dark eyes seemed to hold him. “Maybe, uh, can I see the other room first before we talk about other stuff?”

It was the only time in his life he could imagine wanting to leave a pretty girl’s bedroom, but this seemed practical.

She showed him the bathroom first, spacious for an apartment bathroom and very clean and tidy, and then she showed him the other bedroom. It was smaller than the room his mom was in the process of kicking him out of because in her words, “it’s time to take a risk and live on your own”, but it wouldn’t be so bad.

He looked around the empty space and saw there wasn’t a closet…

“Okay, so it’s not technically a bedroom because it doesn’t have a closet. Originally I was going to use it as my office, and I did for a little while but it just seemed like a waste and I’m tired of living alone. I thought I would like it,” she had a way of speaking, melodic and easy going like they’d been friends forever, and it just pulled him into her orbit and made him hang on her every word… but honestly, he’d probably do that anyway. “But, I just, I don’t know, it got old. Also, the building is no pets so I couldn’t get a cat to keep me company either.”

She said the last part with a laugh and her smile was infectious.

If he didn’t know any better Allen would have thought she was vibing on him, and normally he wouldn’t think…

“It’s okay…” her voice hung there, softly, gently racing out to him, “if it’s too small, or too weird already. I haven’t even told you about the…”

She made air quotes, “Rules. But it’s really just, I need privacy for my clients during work hours Monday through Friday, and it won’t work if someone is here. I mean, if you get sick or something, that’s different, but generally you have to be out of the house from nine to five. That’s not weird is it? I mean,” she’d made eye contact with him again and he was having a hard time thinking about what it would be like to live with this beautiful girl, wondering how he’d even function. “It’s okay if that’s too restrictive or weird. And you get why Lara couldn’t tell you that, I’m pretty sure it’s illegal, but it’s just between you and me right? It’s okay of you feel liek you need to tell someone, but it’s also okay if you just kind of forget about it if you don’t want to live here, right?”

Allen was kind of caught up in the moment again, watching her talk, getting lost in her eyes and listening to her sweet, smooth voice.

They stood there in silence for a long moment.

“You, uh… um… are you saying you want me to be your roommate?” He couldn’t have imagined sputtering the words out even more awkwardly if he’d tried.

“I’ve talked to a lot of people so far, and you really seem like you’re the best fit for me. You have the right energy and you’ve really genuinely responded so well and so quickly to everything. It really shows me that you’re exactly who I was hoping to meet. I know we’re going to be the perfect pair when you move in.”

Allen felt a wave of relief move through his entire body.

Now he just hoped she wasn’t psycho… but there was no way to know if she was until he moved in.

It was a risk he was willing to take.

He moved in over the weekend and was surprised that she was gone until Sunday night. She’d explained over the phone that she was at a professional development class and he was kind of bummed he wouldn’t see her, then he remembered that they lived together now and he’d probably end up sick of her soon enough… since those things just sort of happened even if he couldn’t imagine it, or he kind of assumed that’s how it worked.

Then he saw her after she got home Sunday night and with the first real glimpse of her deep cleavage Allen couldn’t imagine ever getting sick or tired or annoyed with her.

She was wearing tights and a long tee with a deep neck, and had a duffle bag and a garment bag slung over her shoulder as he came in, and even though he’d guessed she was busty, he hadn’t guessed she was this busty.

Her chest stuck out and her top hung off it kind of like a dress and her eyes lit up when she saw him on the couch. “Oh good, you’re home. Can you wait right there, I want to talk to you about something.”

The light from her smile lingered as she went to her room to set her things down then came back and sat down on the couch next to him. She asked about his weekend and how he liked the place so far, then she asked if he went into her room. He said no, because of course he didn’t, and she asked him not to, and it was nice being so close to her and looking so deep into her eyes.

“You know,” she was sitting close to him and while it was not that close the couch wasn’t that big and he could sort of feel her energy, her aura as she spoke to him, “I interviewed a lot of possible roommates and you were really the only one I considered. I kind of felt it in your energy when we met, and you responded really well to me and my energy. I know… it’s…”

She brushed her hair back and tugged at her shirt a little, which made Allen accidentally look down to her chest, which really was sticking out. He assumed it must be her bra, combined with some tricks girls knew where they could really make your boobs look a lot smaller and a lot bigger…

Her voice got even gentler, “Well, Lara told me you said things were kind of hard for you, that you were basically going to be homeless, or were couch surfing, or something, and it really meant something to me to be able to help you this way. I want you to know that I just really felt your energy and felt like I could help you. Have you ever…”

It seemed like she’d gotten closer without him moving, and it seemed like he’s sort of fallen down to staring into her cleavage without really meaning to.

“It’s okay, sometimes it’s too hard to look into someone’s eyes even when you’re connecting with them, just relax, I promise…” her voice was so soft, he couldn’t imagine a softer sound, “It’s okay, you’re home and safe, and I feel so comfortable with you. I was going to ask if you’ve ever been with someone, or met someone, and you just sort of feel their energy connect with you? I’m asking because I’d really like you to feel that way with me.”

There was something in her tone, in the irresistible softness in her voice and the rhythm of her words, especially the way she said, “It’s okay” when he realized her was staring at her breasts, and when she told him he didn’t need to keep eye contact, that made it so easy to keep staring. He didn’t mean to, but he just sort of did, and it felt like he was doing something right just being there with her.

“And I know that’s selfish, or projection, but I just really want you to know that you can feel that way with me.” Her words touched him like an invitation… to someone… and he took it just by sitting there and listening, his eyes growing softer and heavier as he listened and stared at her chest. 

“It’s okay if that’s not how you feel though. Some people don’t really feel other people’s energy like that, and other people can really get carried away in what some people project. You can kind of feel their energy reaching out to you, washing over you…”

She was so warm and so welcoming, and… soothing, that was the word he was looking for.

“Some people feel other people’s energy, and it moves into them. They can feel the calm in someone else, feel their warmth deeply, and it can calm them, and relax them. It’s like a sixth sense, or empathy, you can just feel someone else’s energy washing over you, and you can soak in it as it helps you find your own inner calm… inner quiet… inner…”

Allen felt his eyelids getting heavier and heavier, and the outside world fading into darkness even as his inner voice fell silent and quiet.

“Open your eyes, if you can.” Allen knew he missed a few words maybe more than that, he didn’t know, but he did slowly open his eyes to see Claudia smiling at him, her dark eyes sparkling with joy.

“If you couldn’t have opened them, I would have let you stay here and just keep relaxing, but since you’re back, I want to talk to you a little more.” her sweet voice was wrapping around him and holding his focus, and Allen felt like he was close to having an out of body experience because he was so much more relaxed and calm than he’d been in weeks.

“I want you to know it’s okay to respond to me this way. It’s okay to feel vulnerable when you’re with me, you’re safe here…” she took off her top and was wearing a pastel pink bra that lifted her tits. It had wide shoulder straps and full cups and Allen felt heat flood through his body. He was going to start to stammer out something but Claudia cut him off.

“It’s okay,” those two words were like a blanket over his brain and he fell silent long enough for her to keep talking. “It’s okay to be vulnerable and open here, you’re safe at home with me, and we’re safe to be exposed with each other, safe to be vulnerable and truthful in our actions and our words now…”

She straddled him, “And you’re safe to just feel my energy moving through you, safe to look at what I’m showing you, and safe to lose yourself right here.”

She ran her finger between her cleavage as she said that, and she shifted a little on his lap as Allen felt his cock reacting to her.

“Just focus right here, right between my breasts where the world is safe and warm. It’s okay to want to be there, and to want to stare at my chest. It’s okay to feel how vulnerable you feel when you see my breasts. I want you to feel my energy moving into you. I want you to feel your mind and your body relaxing and unwinding, melting into peace as all your tension disappears. It’s okay to let my breasts draw your eye and drain your stress away.”

His eyelids were starting to get heavy again, and his whole body was warm and loose.

“There’s nothing to say right now Allen, there’s nothing to do and nothing to think, you can just lose yourself deep in my cleavage, down between my breasts, and just open yourself up to me. I’ll take care of you now, I’ll take care of all of your thinking when you see my breasts, and you’ll let me because you know it’s okay to just let my energy fill you.”

She reached around her back, unclasped her bra, and as she took it off and her heavy breasts fell naked and free Allen let out a little moan of pleasure and surprise.

“That’s it, calm now Allen, calm and quiet inside when you see my breasts. Peaceful and open inside when you see my naked breasts. Your mind needs this so badly, to just silently let go and let itself be led. It’s so much easier when someone can just take over and take control, and you can feel that truth as you become more vulnerable and open to me now. It’s natural to feel this way, it’s okay to realize this is just what my breasts naturally do to you, and it’s okay to be you Allen. You’re who I want, you’re what I want, and part of who you are is the part of yourself that needs this. It’s okay to need my energy and my control Allen…”

She’d been rubbing herself on him slowly as she spoke, making her heavy breasts bounce while also stimulating his cock more, and while he was rock hard, his whole world was her soft breasts and her even softer and gently words.

“It’s okay to need to stare at my breasts and lose the last of your inner voice now. Lose it in between my tits, lose it in the softness of my voice, and lose yourself in my words as you hear them without listening now, feeling them sinking deeper into your mind as you start to know without understanding now.”

She leaned in close and pushed her bare breasts into his face, “In just a moment I am going to stand up, and when I do you are going to go into your bedroom, strip naked and lie down on your bed and wait for me. You are going to do this for me, and when you lie down yo wait you are going to feel the whole of your body become too heavy to move… so heavy that it feels like my breasts are weighing your mind down, their memory gently wrapping around your thoughts and your desires and squeezing and smothering them, paralyzing you with their softness and heaviness.”

She slid off of him and stood in front of the couch in her tights with her tits out, and after a moment of staring at her naked breasts with his mouth parted and his head empty, Allen felt his body moving on its own, standing up and then walking into his bedroom to strip and lie naked on top of his bead.

He felt like he was somewhere between a little drunk and a lot dreaming, and while his new roommate stood in front of him gently pinching her nipples and staring down at him on the couch, he was both very aware of how fully and relentlessly aroused he was, how much a part of him very much wanted to stay there and stare at her big incredible tits, and how powerless he was to stand up and do what she’d told him to.

Now he was flat on his back with his cock pointing straight up and his mind a soft, sleepy mush of warmth… and he lay like that with no sense of time until wordlessly Claudia slid on top of him and took him inside her. She was wet, warm, and smooth and she rode him that way, wordlessly bouncing on him until his eyes, utterly transfixed on her jiggling breasts, slowly closed.

“It’s okay to close your eyes, and it’s okay to wait to cum Allen. It’s okay to let me decide when you do, because when you wait for me, you’re waiting for my control and my choice, you’re surrendering your vulnerability and your deepest desires to me. Some deep, stiff part of his body loosened, like some psychic rod down his spine dissolved. “You’re safe here Allen, safe inside me, and safe under me and my control. You’re safe to cum for me now.”

His hips bucked up into her as his body came to life and he let out a desperate shuddering moan of release as he gushed into her and she kept her steady bouncing pace until he was empty…

Allen woke up after having the craziest dream about his roommate.

It wasn’t that crazy, she was beautiful and sweet, and had amazing breasts, so a sex dream about her… His mind cleared as he realized there was so much he needed to dop before leaving the apartment. There were a lot of little things he also sort of wanted to do with his mornings, packing lunch, doing a little bit of exercising, showering after… it was so hard to try and fit everything in, but he woke up with focus and purpose and started moving through his life that way.

“Allen,” he was in the living room getting ready to walk out the door when he heard Claudia’s voice. “Remember, I need your help this evening, and you need to come straight home after your shift, okay?”

She was wearing a plain bra and matching panties, standing in the hallway with her hair up, and her soft eyes held his as surely as her deep cleavage ended up pulling his gaze down. His eyelids felt slightly heavy and his mind went perfectly quiet as she spoke, and he knew he couldn’t wait to see her after work.

“Let yourself work hard today, Allen and I’ll see you tonight.” 

He left the apartment with a smile and was so happy that Claudia already felt comfortable enough with him to walk around in her underwear. I mean, she obviously had to know she was showing off, and that was so nice of her…

“So, uh, what did you want my help with?” 

Allen stood in the doorway to Claudia’s room and she was dressed in a gray pencil skirt and a white button down. She looked very much like she was in an office, and as he looked around her room, aside from the bed in the corner, and a curtain dividing the room and hiding her closet, it did look a lot like an office.

“Please, Allen, have a seat and we’ll get started.” She didn’t answer his question, but the fact her blouse was unbuttoned and spread wide enough to show off her amazing cleavage and her soft breasts, combined with gentle voice made that irrelevant.

He felt himself moving over to the chair that was usually behind her desk that she’d moved out into the middle of the room and sat down. She stood over him, and while sitting down the slight difference in their height made her seem much taller and more powerful.

“Everyone carries a certain amount of fear and tension in their mind and body, deep fears and worries that inform who we are, and I want you to know that it’s okay to have these burdens, Allen.” She was standing in front of him, and he really couldn’t remember what she told him she needed his help with, or when they had this conversation, but her deep cleavage was pulling him in, and her steady gentle voice pulled him out of his inner thoughts to focus only on her.

“I’m going to help you set aside those burdens and ease that day to day stress, and you’re going to help me by letting me do this to you every day. Do you remember us talking about it yesterday? I came home and we sat and talked, and I talked to you about energy and vulnerability. Do you remember that?”

He felt a gentle ripple in his mind, like someone dropped a rock in a pool of water, and as he stared down into her cleavage, his eyelids fluttering and his breath slowing, his body felt heavy and warm and his mind was quiet and open.

 He felt very receptive to her. It felt good to be close to her, good to let her energy wash over him, and he felt keenly aware of how vulnerable he was… and for a moment he was very self-aware, but the sensation faded into the gentle pleasantness of her voice. He liked being close to her, he liked her attention, and he’d missed her all day.

“Vulnerable.” It was almost like free association, but that one word felt right and it made her smile. He saw that as he looked up slightly from the picturesque beauty and perfection of her breasts. They were pushed up and together by whatever bra she was wearing and it made her cleavage even more pronounced,, all consuming, and irresistibly appealing.

“That’s right, we all need moments of real vulnerability and openness with people we can trust, and I know you trust me completely. I can feel it in the way you let my energy wash over you, and how you absorb it. I can see your whole body melting and relaxing as we talk, and I can feel your energy reaching out to me and welcoming me deeper into you. I love the way you give yourself to me so easily, and how you aren’t afraid to do what feels good and easy. You’re doing so well letting all your inhibitions fall away, and it’s okay to feel it happening faster and faster with every word I speak.”

Claudia reached up and unbuttoned a button on her blouse and Allen just sat there disconnected from himself enough to not do anything, but aware enough of the sight of even more of her breasts to be overwhelmed by her all over again.

“You can be open with me, open and bare,” another button came undone. “Open and receptive to my care and my help. You can just give in and let me decide where you focus. Let me decide that it’s good for you to stare at my breasts. You have my permission to always stare at them, to feel how vulnerable you are to the way they draw you in and naturally quiet your mind. Stare and lose yourself, stare and let go of your deepest defenses. Let your innermost walls fall down for me, Allen. Remember, you are always safe with me and it’s okay to let go.”

While he had no conscious memory of what really happened the night before, his body did, and he felt his cock throbbing to life as the rest of his body slid down into the chair, loose and limp, his chin down and his eyes barely open, still focused on her breasts.

“And it’s okay if you can’t remember our conversations, or have forgotten what you do remember, and remembered to forget what you’ve forgotten. Anything that you’ve forgotten just means you trust me enough to let yourself listen and follow and forget. It’s a way of showing me, and yourself, that you really are open and it’s okay to be that fully open for me.”

Every time she said open, she unbuttoned another button, and now her blouse was off and she was standing there in a black bra that did the work of lifting and pushing her breasts together.

“It’s okay, to stare at them, it’s always okay to stare at them, and let them make you feel things. Let them make you feel open and receptive, let them make you feel vulnerable and safe with me. Let them make you feel aroused too, so aroused that you simply need to take your cock out as it naturally responds to my breasts. Feel their energy filling your cock now, feel their pull on you, on your cock, causing it to come out now, Allen. Stare at my breasts and take your cock out for me.”

He felt strange as he undid his pants and pulled out his growing erection, sitting in her room staring at her breasts with half closed eyes, half in a dream, and half overwhelmed with the vague connection to reality he was maintaining.

“It’s okay to stroke it a little bit, it’s okay to stroke it when you think about my breasts, or when I tell you to, especially when I’m in my bra or…”

She reached behind her back and undid the clasp, then adjusted and as her bra fell to the floor her tits also dropped, and it was an amazing sight to watch them bounce and fall, “When I’m topless. It’s how you’re supposed to feel, and I want you to feel this open and vulnerable with me, Always open and always defenseless for me so I can just whisper in your ear and help you. I want you to just feel my energy following through you, opening a part of you up to me forever and always, so I can always just whisper in your ear and make everything nice and easy.”

She was playing with her tits and he slowly stroked, and then she knelt down between his legs and wrapped his cock between her breasts.

“It’s going to take time though, time and practice, time and conditioning so it can just happen. You’re already so receptive to my energy, but our minds are very complex and take time to naturally learn to let go and open up. It tackles time to let your walls down instantly and automatically, which is why we’re going to practice every single night. And you can’t be distracted by anything else…”

Her tits made his cock disappear as she tit fucked him, and slowly his eyes closed and he couldn’t find a way to open them, or a way to speak. He sat in the chair lost in her warm flesh.

“It’s why you’re going to go to work every morning and come home every night. It’s why you’re going to make me the center of your world, and why you’re going to make me happy, because of course you want to make your girlfriend happy, don’t you?”

That question sent a spark through his brain, excitement and confusion, but wonderful confusion and his eyes opened.

He also moaned and felt the pleasure building, and she didn’t change her pace one way or the other, she just smiled at him and said, “It’s okay to close your eyes and just let my voice fill your mind, just like it’s okay to let my tits drain your cock and make you mine all over again. You’ll do the same thing every day, go to work, work hard, come home, and let me help you. You’ll always come home to me, always come back to me, and always let me help you to relax. You’ll remember that I’m teaching you relaxation exercises, you’ll remember that you love me, and you’ll cum for me now.”

Allen opened the fridge to find that Claudia had made him a lunch. He hadn’t expected it but there it was, and he didn’t even think about it, he just took it and put it in his beg. A week into living together and every day his heart felt lighter and his job felt easier. He spent a lot of time with her and he couldn’t believe how they just fit together.

It was weird though, he spent so much time with her that he couldn’t really find time to do the things he used to do after work, and when he tried to think about his hobbies they just seemed to slip through his fingers. It might just be the thrill of a new relationship… he had no idea how they had just become a couple, but she treated him like her boyfriend and that made it easy.

She had another professional skills and development class she was going to over the weekend, and he knew he’d have time for himself, but there were so many other things that seemed more important than his hobbies. Something about that seemed wrong, it seemed like there were things he wanted to do, but nothing was as important as what Claudia talked to him about and what Claudia wanted.

He wondered if he was whipped, but she was so sweet and so gentle with him he couldn’t imagine that described it. They also hadn’t really done anything besides kiss a little bit, and they hadn’t gone on a proper date either, but it didn’t matter because things just felt right.

When he asked her about the classes she went to the previous weekend and the one she was going to this weekend, she told him, but he couldn’t really remember the details. He also couldn’t really remember exactly what kind of coaching she did, and it was just easy to think of her as a life coach. Even the certificates on her wall didn’t really sink in.

But none of it mattered because Claudia made it okay for him to finally relax and let go of all of the tension and anxiety in his mind. He was becoming a different person, and he couldn’t imagine wanting to be anything other than perfect for her… which was good, because she made it so easy on him.